“You are not the boss of me!”
I finally had to say that to myself 10 minutes ago. Well, not really to myself, but to the voice inside my head.
Just got everyone home from school/daycare and away I went nagging, nagging, nagging. There is a Ugandan Gospel Choir signing at one of our local schools tonight. I showed Thor and Talula some you-Tube of them this morning to see if they were interested in going – they were. So during the car ride home I explained that if we were going to go, we had to head out right after dinner, and that would mean regular evening things would need to be done before dinner. Then we talked about what those things were and they made a list; un-pack backpacks, make lunches, homework, baths. It’s a lot. So we walked in the door and off goes my mouth. Do you guys want to go tonight? What do you need to do? You guys don’t have much time before dinner…
Even as I write this, I so desperately want to say something to Thor while he practices writing words on our chalkboard table. Can you believe it??? He’s sounding out words and writing them for the first time ever and I want to bust in on that.
It took me a while, but I realized what was going on. I didn’t want them to miss it. I really want to go to this with them.
I think they do want to go – but maybe in the end, having a chill afternoon instead of running around and keeping busy is more their pace right now. So I came home with a mission – to take them to see some awesome performance – and all I could think about was what they would miss if they didn’t go. Slowly, as I write this, I am easing off. Still kinda want to give them another reminder. But I won’t. I hope. But it really would be an amazing thing to see. And they play bongos. Thor really likes bongos; so much so the last time he was around some he asked me to dance with him (be still my beating heart). OK. OK. OK. Stop pushing me around, ’cause I don’t want to push them around. Sheesh, the mind can be a little too bossy.
My daughter told me she doesn’t like it when I nag. And I find it so hard when I and my wishes get in the way of my parenting. Happens multiple multiiple times a day. Thanks for the awareness!
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I have that same bossy voice!! And boy, doesn’t it get annoying…I can only imagine how my kiddos feel when I actually let that voice speak